12:42


Ugh. How dreadful it is to be down with fever... AGAIN.

I've just recovered from high fever as december 2008 came to an end, & now I'm down with it once more.. 2 high fevers within a period of a month, both coupled with horrible sorethroats, coughs, phlegm, & body aches as well =.= This is really hampering my academic progress & makes it even harder for me to pull myself up & get to work.

The good thing's that I'll be back in school tomorrow after missing 2 days of school. That wouldn't have mattered much if we were still in lower sec, but it matters so much now that it's our 'O' level year, this year. Oh well, I guess now time's still on our side; but once nearing june, I bet you'd wake up questioning the reality of limited time you've left to prepare for perhaps one of the most pivotal points in your life. Yes, the big 'O', obviously.

If any liberty to spare, I can only allow myself till the march holidays. I can't afford losing out on anything more related to studies after that.

At the same time, I must reserve my poise. I can't flip out if something goes wrong, no matter how abject the situation is. I need to manage my anger, certainly. I couldn't believe I was able to lift a relatively heavy computer chair with one hand and somehow fling it at the cupboard, when I went berserk that my seven year old laptop had encountered an internal error & shut down without saving; the whole progress of my project obliterated.. Now I'm regretting what I did; I look at the damaged cupboard & go, "It didn't deserve this, it did nothing wrong; it isn't even a living thing. Anyways, it's my property, so why the fuck did i wreck it in the first place?" The last question is anwered by my inability of controlling my fury, & I guess the adrenaline rush just gets the better of you & you act before you think, which is why it is always better to be calm in even the most bleak scenarios, as you get to think before you act.

Okay, I'd love to be more philosophical here, but I think I'd better control my inner wants from engulfing me. I have to take my medication pills & get some rest, otherwise I'll prolong my illness.

Later!

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Driven by Hate, Consumed by Fear

15:30


Today was the bomb! Lots of laughter, good news, & thanks be to god it all went well today. I wasn't anticipating a pleasant day today, but it seems the tables have been turned; the day at school was rather enjoyable, partly due to the fact that it was our slacking day, tuesday. 1st 2 periods mother tongue, same old stuff. Same with physics after mother tongue. & Then along came P.E.

To be honest, my heart was racing as aljunied clarified with us one by one, about our CCAs & whether we were 'regulars' or not, as he took our attendance. When my turn came, I immediately answered in a 'step-confident' tone, "Youth Flying Club". Then he paused * gave me that surprised stare. A couple of seconds later he complimented that I had 'lost a lot of weight'. That was kinda expected, I did lose a lot of weight anyways, but what stunned me was how polite he was being to me this time round. He even advised me nicely to be more engaged in my CCA when I hadn't been attending it since the start of sec 3. Well, I must say I'm quite glad the air's been cleared between us.

& So he continued on with his CCA attendance clarification. Although he was nice to me, I know he's still as mean as he was before. This time, Amin got it the worst. I know he means what he says jokingly only, but he does it at the expense of others, which is not at all respectful, I feel. Before Amin could even clarify his cca, Aljunied was already like, "BUFFET KING","WITH THE MILKSHAKE","EXTRA CHEEEESSEEE". Although it was funny and even I myself roared with laughter along with the entire class, I just feel sorry for the guy. I don't know how he contructs such an impenetrable emotional wall to shield himself from insults daily. I guess he's just very carefree, Amin. Hahahahas. He was even laughing along at himself when he got insulted. I wish I was a carefree as him. Aljunied even told Amin to sit down and have a coffee with me & get tips on how to lose weight effectively. LOL.

After the 1 period-long CCA attendance clarification, we finally headed to the hall to take our height & weight. I'm assuming this is the 1st time this year most of us're measuring our height & weight, which could have either fluctuated or remained the same. For me, I grew about 1cm over the holidays, & I'm now about 171cm. As for my weight... well I'm sure those of my friends who had been in 1e4 & 2e4 with me should know it had gone down drastically, but I didn't expect myself to be lighter than 70kg now ROFL. Without my belt, I'm about 69kgs. Hey, 171CM, 69kg. Not bad okay, I was 91 kg in sec 1 HAHAHAHA. Compare me between now & previously, & you'd be astonished. I really don't know how to express my delight, but I certainly know this: I'M FINALLY AT ACCEPTABLE WEIGHT after being overweight for effectively, the entire 15 years of my life. Yes, I'm aware most of my classmates now wouldn't know exactly how much I've gone down, as some of us weren't together in lower sec hahas. For those who were in the same lower sec classes as me, you guys should know :)

Somehow, those endless situps on the bed & pushups on the mat did the trick.
Oh, & not forgetting that pact I made with rice enforcing my will not to eat it :)

On the other hand, there were some who were rather disappointed with their new height and weight, & some pleased. Some of our measurements seemed unreal, like potato looking unrealistically tall, but ended up being only 167cm. I guess nicholas was lucky he grew 2cm, & he's no longer below 160cm anymore LOLs. He's right at 160cm now. Gengting grew quite alot since last time too, & I've realized that he's voice is just starting to break LOL. Congratz to gengting on not being the shortest guy in class anymore despite just hitting puberty, sorry nick, you're now the shortest guy.. LMAO. It seems most of us have remaind at the same height, or grew by one or 2 cms over the holidays only. Expected; our growth rate's slowing down till we finally reach 21 years of age where it stops completely. I guess sometimes one just looks tall but isn't really very tall, & looks can be deceiving, obviously. Oh well. Hopefully, I'll be about 173cm & 65 kg by the end of 2009. =D

After Pe it was really like free period sia. Had the new programme, Catalyst. Mrs Chua talked to us about our goals for O levels & about the right attitude we should have as we mature, & have the motivation to work hard for what we want. Nicholas wouldn't stop asking me whether he was fat or not during the whole time. REALLY ANNOYING especially when it's coming from a GUY -.- We also played a game involving strings we had to tie knots to form a circle, and then stand in the circle as Mrs Chua took away more & more of our individual circles, from one to a person to 5 to the whole class in the end.We had to make sure both of everyone's 2 feet were within the circle made by tying 5 pieces of string to form one large circle to fit roughly 35 people. In the end, we succeeded by having all the big guys sitting around the circle with only our 2 feet in the circle, and then having the smaller-framed guys to sit on our laps or knees. It was a painful experience for me, I supported a sitting Nicholas Leong on my knee when it was angled at almost 150 degrees to the floor. & Then we were trying desperately to find a song to sing which would end our agony of having to squeeze together in the circle, & finally Iskandar Z & Sham started singing the national anthem & we all followed along HAHAHA. Using nicholas leong, I inadvertently weight trained for a couple of minutes. My legs were aching after that, but all in all, we had fun during our 1st ever session of Catalyst with Mrs. Chua.

Bad things about today? Hmm.. let's see here..... I GOT CAUGHT FOR MY HAIR. TWICE.

& the worse thing is... I just cut it last week! My hair's been reduced by so much, & yet they still think it's long?! My hair before I cut it was at least 3 times thicker & longer than it is now lor.



Long Hair on the 21st Dec 2008... It still got longer nearing the start of school.

Curse you, blind discipline masters.
Now I know that you're screwed in Singaporean Secondary schools if you have naturally WAVY hair, like me. Your hair's not even long by your standards, & yet you can get caught just cause it's 'too thick' or some shit like that.

Alright, I'd better get started with my homework, wouldn't wanna waste my energy burning midnight oil just doing some stupid homework.

Astalavista.

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Driven by Hate, Consumed by Fear

16:24


Hahahas, salutations my friends. Today was the start of week 1 of school, & it went fairly well, unexpectedly. Mr. Ng's back, but I guess he forgot about the submission of our report books. Had 2 periods of mother tongue; schoolmates from 4e3 are joining our already combined mother tongue class on 4e1 & 4e2, an additional class of malay students for cikgu to teach. Pretty much slacked during chem as Mr. Tan went yapping on & on about his lifelong dream & something about cows at the beach?! LOL

& Yeah, since our class 4e2's left with only 5 gals, & I happen to be the first guy on the class register, I'm guessing I'll be sitting next to Rochelle whenever we head to the lab when Mr. Tan decides to have lessons there. Sorry Rochelle, if I'm boring. I know I'm just TOO QUIET in school. In front of most people anyways.

Maths had the usual fun-yet-unnerving kind of atmosphere. Plotting graphs now, which's somehow better for me cause I'm just too darn sick of solving equations already.After recess we took turns bullying Jonathan Chua a.k.a Potato, impaling his ass, poking his ribs, tripping him on his laces, making him sit on his worksheets, etc. I really pity you, Jpc. Sec 4 still kena bully like, this badly lmao. You're the butt of all jokes. Oh, also, Nicholas Leong went on calling me "the lump" & I countered by calling him "white pudding", "white jelly on the table", & so on. He kep calling Ms. Lau a furby during SS remmebering the Furby Prank Call tune I sent him some time ago, also pestering me to sing the parody of Avril Lavigne's Song "Complicated" by Weird Al Yankovic, Entitled "Constipated". It has the same tune as the original song, & I sang only the first line after the "uh-huh" part, which went out as "Extra Cheese.". That alone left a Nicholas Leong stunned, mouth gaping. He said I really have the tone in my voice? LOL. Hahahs. Thanks for the compliment nick, the number of times I remember you sincerely praising me can be counted by fingers. & The other time you praising me about my singing was about the CHOCOLATE RAIN THINGY =.=, with the abnormally deep voice.

So, after school , Danny, Samuel, Nicholas, Ziyang, & I walked to the bus-stop past a few blocks & took our separate buses home. Waited for 358 with kzy & nick, & Mole Hole just happened to also be taking the same bus. Kzy took the opportunity to insult Mole Hole as mockingly as he could, somehow that guy's just really thick skinned. Like no effect at all sia, when he kena insulted. You slap some profanity in his face, & it just bounces off his physical & emotional THICKNESS. Well, I guess people like this have already gotten used to being criticized. Nick's face was already red laughing & I couldn't stop guffawing either. The insults kept getting funnier & funnier, & seemed to stack, making it even more hilarious with kzy exaggerating stuff to make fun of Mole Hole.

Took the bus when it arrived, & nick alighted at the interchange. Then Kzy & I alighted at elias mall & made a quick stop at 7 eleven, & after that we bid each other goodbye for the day & he went back to his apartment as I marched up the hill to my terrace house.

Ahh....what a day. I hope for the best tomorrow during PE. It'd be a miracle if that bull aljunied doesn't bug me tomorrow. Ah heck. He's only gonna be here for the next couple of weeks, then he'll be as good as gone for half the year. God.

I better get started on my homework for today, hopefully completing it by tonight. If I complete all of it today, I'll most likely not have any to do tomorrow! :D

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Driven by Hate, Consumed by Fear

20:21


I'm so not looking forward to this week , particularly due to the fact that I have to adjust my lifestyle accordingly, to fit my schedule, all thanks to fucking school. I'm glad for the fact that that big douche aljunied's leaving us for half a year, & is set to be replaced by Singgam. However, I'm really not that optimistic about the upcoming mounds of imminent homework in store for us. Personally, I feel that homework is a waste of time, really, if a person doesn't want to do it but is forced to, as he or she loses all the vibe & focus required to learn from that bloody maths worksheet. Oh yeah, another piece of really bad news for me's that's before singgam replaces us as aljunied's away for half a year, we'll be having a couple of PE lessons with him first. To all those cca-less peeps, GOOD LUCK.

The weekend was pretty fine for me, I tried something different & completed all the homework assigned on the 1st day of school on Friday itself. NOT THE CRAPPY HOLIDAY ASSIGNMENTS, though.

Yesterday I had tuition with my tutor whom I hadn't seen in quite a while; how long's it been? 7 months? Hahahas. So anyway, had tuition with him from 8-10 & had our usual breakfast-bought-home by my dad after the session. We caught up on a lot of things, each of us having too many interesting events to storytell anyway. It was awesome finally meeting him again, both for tuition, and the great company.

Other than that, I spent the whole day slacking & musing about alot of stuff. Then at night I went out with my family to have a late dinner at the Swensens in WhiteSands. We actually intended, for a change, to try our having dinner at the Manhattan Fishmarket there insteadm but I guess it was too crowded for our comfort. I don't no about the rest, but I only just noticed that the seafood based restaurant had opened next to Swensens there. Even my cousin who lives in Bukit Batok knew it was there for quite a while already & I hadn't a clue =.= Gee, I haven't been getting out enough, to WhiteSands at least.

As a family, we shared our holiday experiences with each other during dinner. Although most of the conversations really lifted my spirits, my parents just had to jeep questioning me about the stupid conflict I had with a certain someone while they away for their pilgrimage in Mecca. That really brought back the unwanted, late memories of a recent 2008 mishap. Anyway, I do not wish to talk about it any further. If anyone wants to hark on the past, then I bid thee sayonara. I want to feel peaceful, not swelling with hate, again.

Alrighty then. I'll be watching lame old Star Wars which's on TV right now while reading my REP once again...ZzZzZz.......

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Driven by Hate, Consumed by Fear

19:03


Hey guys. I guess I hadn't the liberty of time to blog on the 1st day of the new year 2009, so I'll include my New Year Resolutions in my post for now. Oh, also wishing everyone a happy & fulfilling 2009, looking forward to the year ahead since 2008 was erm.... well, not too good for me, I'd say. But yeah, the trick is to avoid harking over the past anyways, so I'll just make sure this year'd be a better one, for me at least.

My New Year Resolutions are to :

- Sticking to my schedules better
- Be more motivated

The First of the latter bearing the utmost significance.

Ah, the 1st day of school.

It turned out better than I'd expected, perhaps because of the introduction & the usual humour from our class comedians. I must say, I haven't had a laugh like that in qute a while. The one where you giggle convulsively till your cheeks hurt. I was also rather surprised to see Mrs Chew back, her hair now dyed a light brown hue. I guess not seeing us for 6 months made her able to spot certain differences in some of us, particularly myself, if you get what I mean. :) After school I headed home by foot accompanied by Ziyang, Danny, Jonathan, Matthew, Gengting, Samuel, & Nicholas, although we really did take a bus at the interchange after walking about half the distance due to Ziyang's fear of rain. Haha. With that, I feel that the New Year has started off way much better than expected for me, & I'm certainly hoping that there'll be more good things to come in the year ahead. OH! One more thing. That pesky Aljunied's gonna be gone for half of the year, great news I guess. But then... Singgam as our new PE teacher?!? Simply absurd.

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Driven by Hate, Consumed by Fear